I wish I didn't get as jealous as I do. I hate it. I think it's one of the things I hate most about myself. Sometimes it gets so bad that I don't know who I am anymore. I don't know how I got to this point. I never used to be this way. It scares me. Morever , i'm tired, tired of questions my mind is asking me all the time which i couldn't answer perhaps i should say i couldn't find the answer. Its mentally tiring but somehow i will get use to it somedays because i know you will never...