i'm worry that you will turn and walk out of my life somedays. I'm afraid you will do that because my guilt is haunting me right now. Whenever i'm happy i treated you like you were my everything but whenever thing never go right for me i always give you those fucked up attitude that no one can ever imagine. But yet you never scream , yell or scolded me. You hold me back , do the stupidest action , say the funniest joke , buy the things i wanted and do whatever silly things to make me smile and be happy again. Always carrying my heavy bag and not say a word, i really feel guilty and sad about what i have done and treated you. I hate myself for not being able to control my attitude . I always asked you i'm bad to you my dear ? You always say 'No you're not' Why can't you just tell me i'm the worst i'm bad , i should just fucking stop this fucked up attitude and shutup. When i sat down and thought about what i have done so much to hurt you for this pass few weeks and yet you still love me unconditional i really feel like shit, i always think that you treated me this way is what i should deserve because of how much motherfucking shit you did to me but i was wrong you have given in enough to me, everyone makes mistake if you can forgive me why can't i? I will always remind myself that i treat you better , you deserve the best from me because you handle me well at my worst . I will always keep my promise to you , i will wait for you no matter what happen . Much love . bbboy . <3 i hope you will get to see this post its specially written for you. <: